I've recently been contemplating homeschool. The idea emerged as my sweet kindergartener started coming home as the devil. Overtired and surrounded by other sassy children, she would have the attitude and will of an apathetic teenager. Sure, she can do the math of an 8 year old, but consumed in her worries of others' opinions and riddled in self-doubt, had me examining my main priorities for parenting my children.
I never believed that I could be cut out for homeschool. I love a break. It's good for all of us. I come back a more patient and loving mom. And yet sometimes when I am feeling less confident, I find myself hiding behind my babies, dreaming of the Joanna Gaines inside of me. I let motherhood be my shield and put these little tiny humans on as my coat of armor. Like somehow, I don't think I'm quite good enough all on my own and you know, because I'm too busy momming to be the full expression of myself. So at least look at them. Aren't they beautiful? Aren't I at least doing this thing right? Why do I have to rock the boat and put myself out there? Why don't I just go all in on this mom thing?
But the truth is, my soul's purpose is just a bit more multi-dimensional. Isn't yours? I often try to talk myself into it when I'm scared. When I have doubts. And when I feel like I am failing at all the things. But I can't hide behind my babies forever. I have to learn to be outside and be seen as me. As Brook. To walk in my purpose with confidence and learn to embrace that there are so many layers to me, to us, and that's the beauty of this whole thing.
I love the idea of homeschooling and unschooling. And who knows where that will lead. But I also love me. I love contributing to other people. And I love showing my children how far they can take this life.
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