I was 17 when the Columbine shooting occurred. It was 4/20. The national day for smoking pot and senior ditch day. I was out of school with my friends and it was mid afternoon when we caught word. The following days at school were haunting. We filled with hall wall with a giant paper roll covered with our words of prayer and condolence. The feeling was all too real and vivid. We became acutely aware of the students that were neglected and how to be a little kinder to one another.
School shootings upon school shootings later, here we are. Last Spring as I was prepping to enroll a kindergartener a Florida shooting, shot me square between the eyes. What if this was my baby girl. I felt so nauseous I wanted to puke. Everyone on Facebook is arguing gun control vs mental health and all I can think is how the hell do I protect my child. I can't. I can't even begin to fathom the pain of losing your child at school to open fire. This is the one place. The main place that I trust beyond the depth of my soul to keep my child safe. I am trusting you. I have given you my heart. When I drive away from car pool, I have to know that she will be safe in order to function.
The thing is, I do trust the schools and the teachers. It's not internal. But yet the system is failing me. It's failing our children and our teachers and our country. The system with all of it's layers. The system that says this isn't that big of a deal.
The system of local laws and national law enforcement. The system of access to health professionals. The system of you and me as contributors to our community and to the greater collective.
Someone drives an airplane into a building and we bind together as one nation and we wage a war. Someone opens a semi-automatic weapon into our schools, our churches, and our nightclubs and we just shrug our shoulders and point fingers. In one scenario we take massive action and we collaborate. In the other, we yell at each and point fingers.
Can I tell you something?
I don't fucking care who's fault this is. I don't want to hear your political one liners. I want to keep my children, my family, and my community safe from murder.
I'm tired. I'm tired of the political rhetoric. I'm tired of politics feeling more like the Super Bowl, wearing your teams color and mascot without anyone really digging in. What are you doing outside of the election? How are you solving the problem? And why are we holding everyone else responsible for taking action?
Killing each other will not be solved by mental health access and gun control alone, which I am all in for. Killing each other is deeper than that. Killing each other means we need to wake the fuck up. Killing each other is going to take being nice to each other. Slowing down. Breathing. Judging each other less. Empowering one another to listen to their heart. Acceptance. Loving your fucking neighbor. Yes. The one who voted for the other team. The one who doesn't get you. The one who hasn't quite woken up yet. The one who's weird. Killing each other is going to take massive action on the micro and the macro level.
So I ask you. I ask you before you started holding everyone else responsible before yourself. How can you work to keep each other safe and loved? How can you show up today, the way we did in high school after Columbine. The way we did as a nation after 9/11? How will you use your power for good?
I'm a messy hair lovin' - soulful book junkie - mompreneur who's totally addicted to helping women design a life they lovI'm here, simply, to share my truth so that it inspires you to live yours! To be your boldest, most authentic self, to find your tribe that supports your soul, and to go after success in every area of your life. e.